When you move to a new city you’ve never even visited before,
two weeks after you got married, it can be a little bit intimidating and even
discouraging. Luckily I did have this
really good friend who took us in for the first week.
So I have this illusion that there is one best way to do everything,
that there is one best apartment we should live in, and that there is one best
job I should be having, and so on … you get the picture. And because I’m wired
to think that there is one optimum way or thing in everything, once I come
across that one thing, I tend to get all worked up and to focus all my mental
capacity and efforts towards that one thing.
Most recent such happening is with a perfect apartment we
found here in our new city of residence, Arlington VA. Not only is it close to
the Metro station and all the major stores one would ever need (i.e. Nordstrom,
Nordstrom Rack, Bed Bath and Beyond, Costco, Marshalls, Macys and even more),
but it is also so cute: hardwood floors, freshly painted walls, pretty spacious
and just homey and perfect. Well since this is not good ol’ Sac town, where I
never needed to apply to get a place, but went through family connections, we
had to undergo this slightly stressful application process. It’s been a bit humbling
and we still haven’t heard back whether is yey or nay.
As I was all worked up and a bit discouraged on Sat. I saw
this quote, out of all places at the World Market.
And I realized that
sometimes all it’s required of us to get to where we wanna get, is to BELIEVE.
I realized that my problem is not a lack of taking action or responsibility,
but maybe having this notion that I may, somehow, have more power and can
influence my environment more than I really can.
At first, it may seem almost easier to be believing rather
than to take action, but I think it’s actually tougher. It’s always easier for
me to make a mental or even physical list of the logical elements necessary for
me to tackle and accomplish whatever it is that I want to accomplish; by
contrast, having that faith which makes things happen, is to have a belief in something
which by all standards you shouldn’t. And isn’t that the definition of
miracles? Maybe the most impressive miracle of humanity is the potential we
have to believe things out of this world.
And that’s how I backed off, relaxed some and acknowledged
that I have already covered all that I could influence on my own and that the
rest is up to the Universe…
So true and so refreshing!
ReplyDelete